I still believe in prayer and despite my weird story, I believe I have experienced the power of prayer in my life. Those answers may have been coincidences, and the outcomes may have happened without prayer or divine involvement, but I choose to believe in prayer, because I want to believe that God intervenes in our lives for the better. Despite never having experienced dramatically immediate and miraculous answers to prayer, I still pray for those things, because I hope that God can answer prayer in that way, and does, and I need that hope, maybe more than I really need the thing I am praying for.
I suppose this leads me to what I ultimately believe about
prayer, at this moment in time. I think that we have all become a bit lost, when
it comes to prayer, and despite asking for prayer, I think that the answers we
seek, are not what we absolutely need.
Jesus told us how to pray by teaching us the following words:
Our Father in heaven, may your name be kept holy.
Let your Kingdom come.
Let your will be done on earth as it is in heaven.
Give us today our daily bread.
Forgive us our debts, as we also forgive our debtors.
Bring us not into temptation, but deliver us from the evil
one.
For yours is the Kingdom, the power, and the glory forever.
Amen
You might have heard people say how this prayer provides a
rounded model for how we are supposed to pray, that it touches on different
themes and informs what we should be praying for. This is all great and I don’t
feel the need to repeat ideas which have already been covered elsewhere,
concerning this prayer being a framework for how we pray, but I do want to
focus in on what this prayer isn’t doing, which is presenting a list of our
requests and demands to God, and then waiting to see what God will do with
them, which I fear, is how we tend to come to prayer. Even when our prayers
aren’t based on our own personal needs, they do still tend to become wish lists
of one kind or another.
These prayers can be well intentioned and are seemingly
legitimate things to ask God for, we ask that God’s presence will be with us,
we ask that the Holy Spirit will guide us, we ask for those who are sick to be
healed, we ask for wisdom for our politicians, we ask for peace where there is
war, we ask for wealth where there is poverty, and so on. These are all good
things to want and valid things to pray for, but they are also a little bit demanding.
They are things that we would like to see, or that we think God would like to
see, and I wonder if we pray for these things sometimes, from a place that
doesn’t really concern God’s holiness, kingdom or will. The only part of the
Lord’s Prayer which concerns our ability to navigate the difficulties of life
here on earth, is in the line where we ask, “Give us today our daily bread”. I
think we take this to mean, “Give us the things that we need to make our lives
comfortable and less stressful, give us what we want so we can be happy and
content, give us easier lives so that we don’t have to struggle.
I think we know that “daily bread”, kind of means what it
says, that we will be given what we need to get through the day. However, I
think there is a huge gap between what we think we need, and what we actually
need. We might think we need an immediate space to park the car at a busy supermarket,
although we’d probably manage if we had to drive around the car park for a few
minutes and wait for someone to eventually leave. We might think that we need a
dream yacht, although we’d probably cope with a lower spec yacht, and maybe
even without any yacht. More seriously, we might think that we need swift
resolutions to the difficult circumstances that life throws at us, although what
we probably need more than those answers to prayer, is the strength to simply get
through the day.
In the original Greek of the New Testament, the phrase
‘daily bread’ is epiousios artos. The word artos, which means
bread, is clear enough, but the word epiousios is interesting for a
number of reasons. This word isn’t found anywhere else in the New Testament,
and so the use of it in this passage is very specific and deliberate. It means
‘the bread of our necessity’ or ‘the bread that suffices for each day’.
Bread wasn’t a luxury, it was a staple that everyone had,
it was one of the bare minimum items that people needed nutritionally, to get
them through the day. When Jesus fed the five thousand, he did so using bread
and fish, there wasn’t any wine, fruit, or meat. He didn’t give the people a
gourmet feast, he gave them a meal that that would replenish them, after
following him all day. It might not have been the meal that all five thousand
had wanted to eat, but it was what they needed, and the Bible says that they
all ate it and were satisfied. This was bread of necessity, true, it might have
been magic bread that was consequently, also delicious, but I imagine that it
would have just been a normal, reliable, solid, no-frills loaf. The bread that
they needed that day, and some fish. Similarly, when we pray this prayer,
perhaps hoping for the things we need with extra bells, whistles and ribbons
on, what we basically need, is enough to get us through the day. Anything we
get beyond that is a bonus. I think that we need to reframe how we pray with
this in mind. If God can give us the means to get through the day, then we can
then be thankful of that, and anything extra we get, we can be additionally grateful
for.
I think if we consider the Lord’s Prayer, it’s about
submitting to, and focusing on God. It’s about recognising that God is Holy,
and that God’s will and kingdom are above our own wills and our earthly
kingdoms. It is about acknowledging that God can give us what we need to get
through the day, that we are forgiven and so should forgive others, and that
God will keep us from temptation and evil. It’s about looking to God in all
aspects of our lives, and recognising that God is enough, which is a challenge,
but I think it can also be something that can bring us peace and assurance.
If I reflect back on my weird testimony there is one thing
that stands out for me, which is that I stopped asking for prayer that my
anxiety would be healed, because nothing ever changed and the unanswered prayer
just made me feel worse. Even though I became disillusioned with the power of
prayer at this time, I still had my faith, and instead of praying for healing,
I returned to simply being with God. There wasn’t any expectation, when I came
to God, most of the time I was still frustrated with my job and burdened with
my anxiety, but I wasn’t constantly disappointed with God, and I felt I had
enough, and I was thankful for that. Through just being still before God, I did
start to grow closer to God, and more confident in myself as a person. That
journey continues and it isn’t always perfect, but I feel content in what I have,
and I think that is reflected in how I pray. When I pray, I don’t usually have
a list of things that I would like sorting in my life, because I believe that
God will give me what I need to get through each day. Life isn’t always easy, I
still struggle with anxiety, and I still find it hard to trust God, but I still
believe that God has given me more than enough to get through each day, and I
know that God doesn’t let me down.
When it comes to praying for other people, if they are
asking for specific things like healing, change in circumstance, or things like
dream yachts and cars, then I still ask for those things when I pray for them,
because it seems like the right thing to do. It would be a bit insensitive of
me to tell them that they don’t really need those things, but I believe that
those prayers might be answered, because maybe that is what that person
absolutely needs. However, I’ve also been challenged in terms of how I pray for
other people when they ask for certain things.
About few years ago, I heard a talk about prayer, and one particular
statement the preacher made, stuck with me ever since, which is that 80% of the
requests we make to God in prayer, don’t require any divine intervention, because
they are requests that we can answer ourselves. Obviously, there are lots of
things that we pray for, that we can’t answer ourselves, because we aren’t all
powerful deities. We can’t bring the dead back to life, heal people with
terminal cancer, or single handedly change the hearts and minds of corrupt world
leaders. However, there are things that we pray for, that we can already do
something about ourselves. If someone asks for prayer because they are
struggling with loneliness and depression, then we can pray that God will make
them feel better, but we could also answer that prayer ourselves by inviting
that person round to hang out and watch a film or have a meal, and maybe by
spending time with them they will feel less lonely and depressed. If someone
asks for prayer because they are struggling financially, then we can pray that
God will help them get a better paid job or that they will find a food bank,
but we could also answer the prayer ourselves by buying their shopping for a
week, giving them a loan, or asking if there is anything we can do that might
need to help ease their financial burden. If someone asks for prayer because
they are burnt out from work and looking after their kids, then we can pray
that God will give them energy and a sense of renewal, but we could also answer
the prayer ourselves by offering to babysit their children so they can have a
night off.
These are all small things but it doesn’t end there. If we
live in cities and towns where there are problems with homelessness, then as a
church we could pray that God would give wisdom to the local government so that
they find an effective solution to the problem, but as a church we could answer
the prayer ourselves by helping at homeless shelters, finding ways of helping people
there, and addressing the needs of those people in practical ways. If we live
in cities and towns where there are problems with poverty, or crime, then as a
church we could pray that God would bring wealth and peace to problem areas, or
we could donate money and goods to local charities, we could get involved in
those communities, or hold our own events and schemes which help people in some
way. Granted, these are challenges for us, and I will be the first to admit
that I fail abysmally in being the answer to prayer in all of the examples I’ve
given, but I also know that I need to step up, and not just pass the problem
onto God, asking him to do something because I don’t think it’s in my skill
set.
Text taken from “Unanswerable:
Exploring the Complexities of the Christian Faith and Biblical Truth”, which is
available from Amazon, and from all good book shops. An audiobook is also
available at https://mindmole.bandcamp.com/music
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